Saturday, June 30, 2007

Send My Love to Heaven



What could I say about a girl I loved since I was ten... that I loved the way she laughed; the way she fussed over silly things, and even the way she cried over some sad silly late night shows. Somehow, I've wished I could have told her that I loved her but there was no hope in doing so. It was too late... too late a love like an unfilled curtain.



She was my best friend and I have known her ever since my childhood began. She knew all my secrets; but if she dug it well, a riddle would have revealed my feeling on her; that I loved her more than I loved myself. Not just because she was pretty and smart, but also the way she put her life in a house-filled bottle.



I could still remember the first time we had met; I was five years old then. It was another windy afternoon having no one to play with. When I climbed up in my tree house, I saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a family station wagon following it. It had stopped right in front of my tree house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when I saw this loveliest girl coming out from the said wagon. She was four years old at that time; but even at an early age, she definitely had a beauty. She had a long silky hair reaching below her waist. Having a fair complexion and wonderful eyes could make one tongue-tied into such. I continued watching her. Suddenly, she looked up and saw me watching over them from my tree house's window. I was about to go down when she grinned and waived her hand in the distance. I waived back and then stared in amazement as I recognized her running towards my tree house.



I went at the edge of the ladder and asked her, "Would you like to come up?" She answered, "Are you allowing me?" I helped her climbed up. When she felt safe at the top, she turned to me and said, "By the way, my name is Sam, what is yours?" "Christopher! But you can call me Chris", as I replied. She smiled. "Well I like your name, and besides, this tree house is cozy". Then I stammered, cursing my ineptitude. "Thanks! My friend and I made this. This is our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball, and go bumping together. He was my best friend and I'm kind of missing him. His family has just moved out two weeks ago..." She tapped my shoulder and said, "I'm here now, we could do things you do with your friend and I could be your best friend too. I never had a boy for a friend before, so it could be exciting to have one. I could learn how to play ball and I have my bicycle so we could go biking together. Now, tell me, how does that sound to you?" My lips tingled on my reply as if everything becomes interesting. "Well that sounds good!" As she felt the cold air sheltering inside, she embraced herself and instantly imparted her last words. "It's a deal then!"



Suddenly, we became best friends and it was a kind of strange at first. She was a girl and there were things I hesitantly indulge with her like catching frogs in the pond, swimming in the beach, and climbing trees. However, she tried and did everything to please me. There was a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race. I healed her scraped knee by having it tied with my handkerchief. I could still remember the time when she hit the window of our neighbor while we were playing baseball. I talked to Mr. Chambers and promised to pay for the damaged part, which meant having to loose a week's allowance.

I also recall the time I fell off the tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten for Sam, who was near to tears when she saw it helplessly trapped in a branch. I get even fought with the tough guys when they teased Sam. I ended up having a black eye and a bruised cheek. Sam was crying as she placed an ice bag over my injured eye and later gave it a get-well kiss. I did everything to please her and gave everything to her little heart's desire.





The beach was our favorite hang out. We had our Saturday swimming routine. We packed up food and later eat them under the big oak tree. There was a special branch in which the two of us could sit under and melancholy foretells each other's dreams. She dreamed of being a Ballerina and she knew my dream of becoming an Accountant someday. She never criticized my pursuits as if they were quite impossible on my part. It made me like her even better when she laid her back against mine. That water with ebbing effects; those leaves that fall behind us; and those wind blows that make us closer to each other. They were all representing how the nature agrees on our circumstances.



As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were simultaneously getting different. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case. But when I started thinking about her at night; dreaming of her in the middle of a sleep, and having a feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was something strange, but then it was exhilarating feeling. It even made me feel so alive. Every time we touched each other's hands, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once, we were at the beach having our Saturday swimming routine. I carried her towards the shore and had a feeling like I didn't want to let go. I've just wished that moment would never come to an end. Since then, I realized that I was sincerely falling in love with my best friend.



Many times, I tried to deny my feelings on her. I was scared to imagine what would happened if I'd try to tell her what I surely feel for her. I was scared because she might think that I was selfishly taking advantage of our friendship. I was afraid she might lose me someday.



At the age of 15, I noticed that Sam grows lovelier each day. How my heart ached whenever I see boys glanced her way. I wanted to punch them as I realized them talking to her; giving compliments, flowers, chocolates and whatever. There were times when I used to watch her yonder; with a mix of anger and frustration on my point of view, I learned how to hate myself for I couldn't even introduce to her my love. I couldn't even find a word to say that I'm dying for her and that I couldn't live without her.



One day, I just heard from a friend that she already had a boyfriend. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was just a rumor. Her boyfriend was Mark, a popular senior, who was the heartthrob of the campus. She, being the cheerleader was close to the basketball team where Mark played as the captain. When I saw them walking together at the parking lot late afternoon, I peered her with my heart slowly breaking into pieces. She noticed me but I pretend I couldn't see her. I was afraid that she might traced in my eyes the pain I was hiding while she's with the guy.



Those days that followed where the saddest days of my life. How my heart squealed when I see her walking by me with Mark at her side. Every time we meet in hallways with Mark around her, there's always an urge to grab her away from him. How it hurt to see the loveliest girl I've known was then owned by somebody else. A special smile that was for me was then casted to the other guy. If she could only notice my stolen words, "Oh God, how I love that girl…"



Then one faithful day, they broke up. She came too me at evening and laid her head on my shoulder. She had a big conflict with her boyfriend and it ended up to a break up. A lot of things I felt inside. Another thing I knew was that, she was free and maybe I would have the second chance of telling her what I really felt for her. It’s too bad that she was being obsessed with the guy. At that time, I certainly get confused where all those things must have been started.



We found ourselves doing what we did during old days with our Saturday swimming habit and spending time hanging out with our tree house. We enjoyed doing childish pranks because we both still young at heart.



Chances were everywhere to hit the point of turning back. She made me lived again after my darkest days. That was it... with a girl who came back in my arms; I imagined sometimes the secret that had been unleashed. I imagined she's aware of my infatuation. But losing her exaggerated my brain because of the truth she never knew. All I did was as usual as it was. Things must have been kept even if it's busting inside my heart.



It was a week before our JS Prom; we sat under the oak tree drying ourselves right after our afternoon swimming episode. She asked me a favor, "I was wondering Chris if you would like to be my partner?" It just got out of my wits for it was like a dream I never thought would happened. It took me awhile to react, "I thought there are boys out there dying to become your partner?" I doubted if it was a good answer, as if showing her that it was out of my concern. But if she could only knew how the stars collide in my own constellation. If she could only knew how I loved to hear it over and over until her words ran out of rhyme. She turned away and murmured, "Well, I just thought I'd like to spend that night with my best friend." Then she pursued whispering as I could barely hear her voice, "Don't you want to be my Prince, Chris?" I stunned to speak because it had come close to blurt all what I felt for her. We remained silent for awhile until I finally imparted my conclusion, "I would be happy to be your partner, Sam!" She smiled and suddenly kissed my cheek. I could hardly felt the bliss she gave to me. I recognized her face turning into a pinkish blush, as if she never knew what have she done. She stood up and ran towards the shore leaving her words, "Last one to reach the shore would treat into a Sundae Fudge!" I slowly ran before her so that I would lose her dare, which meant having her with me for another three hours and more.



Our Prom night came. I bought a new tuxedo and poured it a perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Her Mom approached me as I went to sit in the couch waiting for Sam to come down. I was talking to her Dad when I heard a rush stating, "How do I look?" I looked up and saw her walking down the stair; getting lovelier than ever in a strapless white noble dress with her hair flowing around her face. I stood up and get stucked, as if I couldn't find my voice to shout to her my affection on her beauty. I got her hand and shakily fastened the corsage around her wrist.



"To the loveliest girl in the whole world..." She asked, "Is that true?" I nodded and she smiled the moment I opened the door for her.

When we arrived at the gymnasium, we could hardly recognize our classmates. Gone were the jeans and t-shirts. They wore tuxedos and gowns but Sam’s gown has the power to be respected by such. I held out her hand, bowed and said,” You look magnificent tonight, would you give me the honor of your first dance?" She laughed and curtseyed. Then I led her to the dance floor as the music changed into its greatest harmony.



It was like a dream come true; a moment of enchantment. I was there dancing with the only girl I've ever loved. She was smiling up to me, as we were harmoniously getting into a smooth gliding motion. I found myself lost as I stared down to her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair were like waves enhancing her beautiful face. Until my heart wanted to speak. I wanted to tell her that I loved her so much. I drew up all my courage to whisper it in her ear but suddenly, the music had stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to telling her, but still have not done it yet.



We walked towards the table and found ourselves surrounded by friends. I asked her if she wants a drink, she nodded and so I went to get one. It took me a long time to get a drink. When I returned to the table, she was gone. I asked her friend, Katie, where she was but she told me that she didn't notice her. So I went forward and searched for my girl.



In the garden, I saw two silhouette figures outlined by the moon's silvery light. They were so closed to each other. I couldn't describe the feeling then I recognized the white noble dress Sam was wearing. I get inside and left the Prom. Since that night, I avoided her. Many times, she tried talking to me but I never gave her the chance to do so. I was afraid to hear from her mouth that she loved Mark instead of me. Id rather had left in ignorance than knowing from those dreaded words, the truth she really felt for the guy. Those months were tormenting but still I kept my pride. I knew all those things were killing me, but it was the best way to forget her and to get away from my bad emotions.



During my Graduation Day; I was planning to take up Accountancy far away from my village. At the end of the program, she approached me and handed me a rose. When she stared at me, there was something in her eyes that I couldn't define. There was sadness on her that it wasn't the same smile I've seen before. I wanted to hug her so that she would know for the last time, all my passions on her. But she's gone and walked away, just like a newly freed butterfly.



I moved out the next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted at the university. I was down with my studies but still I think of her every night. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tried not to think of her but still I couldn't stop myself from loving her. Every achievements in my life were definitely inspired by the loveliest girl I've ever known, and that was Sam.



"One day, I will be successful. I would tell her the truth from my heart, and by that time, I'm worthy of having her forever..."



Four years after, I decided to come back home. I was excited not just because I was all grown up and I have learned how life should be; but also, I have gained a lot of courage during the past four years. As I got off the plane, I immediately went home. Along with the bus, I imagined her embraces when she would knew the reason I came back. I imagined how we celebrate our old time swimming routine just like what we had at young age. I imagined how the weather cheers with our happiness to be with each other again. I was desperate to see her and tell her that I miss her so much, and that I have loved her since then.



At their house, I saw her older sister Jenny and then I approached her. I've given my homecoming smile but I noticed she didn't smile back. I was confused for she used to be as cheerful as Sam. "I guess you are surprised of my homecoming. I just want to visit you and I am also hoping to see Sam. By the way, have you seen her?”



I have no premonition of everything because my excitement didn't want to rest. Until I heard Jen...



"Come follow me!” breathlessly spoken.



So I followed her with a little confusion in my head. I tried to change the phase of her day and indulged in a wild conversation. I realized that she couldn't afford of a very enthusiastic mood. I carefully noticed that she was leading me to the direction of the beach. In the distance, I saw the old oak tree that Sam and I used to climb up. It was already a decayed tree with empty leaves on its twigs. I thought of it as a symbol of my eternal love for her. But then, it seemed like a legend of a mysterious history, delineating the effect of a drought intrusion. In the middle of the journey, I smiled upon remembering the kiss Sam had given me when I agreed to be her partner. Though the place was starting to fade, I could still adhere to the callings of my memories with her. When we get closed to the tree, Jen had pointed...



"There is Sam!"



I looked at where she was pointing and saw a newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I've ever loved. I couldn’t believe at what I saw and desperately tried convincing myself that was all just a nightmare and I would soon wake up.



I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her eyes searching for explanations and slowly started saying," It has been a week since she died. She died of Leukemia, but even though she was sick, she never stopped thinking about you. It was even your name she uttered before she died. She asked us to bury her here for she always regards this place as a place of LOVE. She said that this is where she had spent her happiest days and that was when she was with you. By the way, she also asked me to give you this."



She handed me a parcel and with that she left. I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it had with it a dried orchid from the corsage I gave her from our Prom. Then at the bottom, I saw a letter. It was dated last month. I opened it with shaking hands and started reading...



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I know by this time you read this letter I'm gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very lucky and thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I would also like you to know that I had left something inside, something I kept from you all these years. I love you Chris, not in a friendly way but as one who would feel like spending the rest of my life with. I have always loved you even from the start. I guess it's getting fonder each day that's why the happiest day of my life was when you were at my side. You just don't know how I dreamed of you at night and wake up in the morning with the thoughts of you in my head. When you're away from me, I can't stop crying because I'm afraid you are with another girl. I just can't bear to see you with another girl. I just want you all for myself. I may sound selfish but that's how I feel. Each time you held me close to you was just like a dream come true. So many things I did so that you will learn to love me but I never saw a hint. I did everything to please you because I love you so much. I even tried to fool myself that you're in love with me. So many nights I've cried when I think of myself unloved by you. And my heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling a lie to the one I love.



I know you might be thinking of Mark but I just did that to make you jealous, to make you see me as a young woman, capable of loving and not as the little girl you used to play with. Sometimes I imagined that you were jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign that you feel something for me too. When Mark and I broke up and I came crying, I just did that to know how you would react and so that I would know if you feel the same way too. But I failed because you didn't give me any clue.



When our Prom night came, you just don't know how happy I was when you handed me the corsage and said that I was the loveliest girl in the whole world. While we were dancing, I wanted so desperately to hear you say that you loved me but still you never did. When Mark came and pleaded me to give him a second chance, I was scared that you might see us talking. I didn't want you to get the wrong impression so I told him we would talk in the garden. There I explained to him that it's you whom I really loved the most. What happened next was that you're gone and later learned that you were searching for me. I came to my conclusion that you saw us together.



The next day, I tried to explain but then you never gave me a chance. You continuously avoided me and yet, you never knew how much pain I've suffered. I felt the world crushing on me.



On our Graduation day, I wanted to tell you how much I loved you but I just couldn't do it. I couldn't bear to hear that all you feel for me was just a brotherly hand of love. I just want you to love me as a woman and not as your playmate. So I just turned away and left.



Now that saying I LOVE YOU might be too late. I want you to know that I will always love you and my heart has always been and will be yours alone.



P.S. Think of me sometimes... and always remember that, loving you was the best thing that ever happened in my entire life.



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I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter. I wanted to shout out to let her know that I loved her, if not as much, but more than she did for me. I love her more than anything in this world. Just like the old tree, Sam was gone. Gone away with the wind and within her was the love I failed to know. I knelt touching the soil of her grave as the rain started to fall. I cried with my painful tears and softly whispered... "Oh God, send my love to heaven."

~The End~

Monday, May 7, 2007

The Troublesome Slippers

Abukashan was a wealthy merchant, notorious for his stingy nature. He had a pair of slippers that were famous in town because they were completely worn out. The slippers had outlived their lives but Abukashan simply refused to buy a new pair.

One day he went to a public bath, visited by all the rich and famous people. He left his slippers outside and went into the shower. A few minutes later a judge entered the bath leaving his new and shining slippers outside. When Abukashan came out of the bath, he could not find his slippers, but saw a pair of new slippers instead. He thought, some friend of mine must have left these as a gift for me. So Abukashan wore the new slippers and went about his business.

Meanwhile, when the judge came out of the bath, he found his slippers missing. His attendant said "Sir I can’t find your slippers, but here are Abukashan’s. He must have taken your slippers."

When Abukashan was found, wearing the Judge’s slippers, he was brought to court. Abukashan tried to explain his side of the story, but nobody believed him. The judge imposed a heavy fine on Abukashan in light of his great wealth and stingy nature. So he paid the fine, took his old slippers back, and went home.

Abukashan was angry with his slippers for causing him so much trouble. So he threw them out of his window into the river below. Unfortunately, the slippers got caught in a fisherman’s net, who was fishing nearby. The old, worn out slippers damaged the net. Naturally, the poor fisherman was angry and he threw the slippers back into Abukashan’s house. The slippers flew through an open window, dashed against some valuable crystal displayed in the house, and in a moment, Abukashan lost his favorite expensive vase.

Now Abukashan was really very upset with his slippers. He knew he had to get rid of them immediately. So he went to a nearby pond and threw the slippers in. But as luck would have it, the slippers logged themselves in a pipe that supplied water, and blocked the supply. When the water supply people finally found what was blocking the pipes, they recognized Abukashan’s famous slippers. So, once again, he was produced in court. And, again, a very heavy fine was imposed on him.

A rather unhappy Abukashan looked with disgust at his slippers. Throwing they away just didn’t seem to be working. He decided he would burn them instead. So he picked up the wet slippers and put them out on the roof of his house for drying. As they were drying, the neighbors’ cat saw them and started playing with them. Just then, a women carrying a heavy load on her head was walking by Abukashan’s house. As the cat was playing with the slipper, it fell off the roof and landed on the head of the passing woman. Unfortunately the woman was pregnant and had to rush to the hospital. Once again Abukashan was produced in court and once again a very heavy fine was imposed.

This time Abukashan decided to bury his slippers. So he came home and immediately started digging a hole in his backyard. A neighbor saw Abukashan digging and thought that he must be burying a treasure. According to the law of that land, citizens were required to notify the government and pay a tax on all treasures. The neighbor informed the government and once again Abukashan was produced in court.

By now the Judge was quite fed up of Abukashan, so he imposed an even heavier fine. Abukashan was now in tears and pleaded to the judge, "Sir, I am tired of my slippers. I have lost all my wealth just trying to get rid of them. Please take my slippers and me into custody. At least that should prevent the slippers from getting me into more trouble."

The judge was a kind-hearted man, and he could understand Abukashan’s troubles. He said "As we go through life we acquire different things and positions in life. We should thank god for showering them on us. But at the same time we should not get attached to them. We must realize that just as good things come, they must go. We should welcome them and enjoy them, when they come. And when it is time for them to go, we should not hold on to them. We must learn to give up our old shoes at the right time".

The Wise Doves

Once upon a time, there lived many doves in the jungle. One day they went out in search of food. They flew long distances but did not get anything to eat. All of them were now completely exhausted.

A young dove asked the King Dove, "Your majesty, please permit us to take some rest."

The king replied, "Have courage, my dear young fellow. We shall definitely get something to eat very soon."



The young dove started flapping his wings with force and soon left everyone behind.

After sometime, he turned back and spoke to others, "Hey, I see lots of grains down there."

Hearing this, all the doves started rushing towards the scattered rice under a banyan tree. Suddenly the King Dove said, "It is too good to be true. There is something amiss. Don’t rush towards the grains, it may be a trick. Some hunter must have laid a trap."

But the doves were ravenous. The sight of the grains were too tempting. Without giving a thought to the king's advice, they swooped down and started eating the grains. After having their fill they tried to fly only to realise that they were caught in a net.

The King Dove said, "I told you before that it is a trick of some hunter."

All of them felt ashamed and scared.

One of them said, "O, King of doves, Kindly save us. We’re sorry for what we did. This has happened for the first time with us. We won’t do it again. Do anything but just save us."

So the king Dove said , "all of you must try to fly with the net in unison, all of you."

Just then they saw a hunter approaching towards them. The King Dove said, "Now all of you, fly together".



So all the doves flapped their wings together and flew with the net. The hunter stood dazed. He couldn't believe what he had just seen.

As the doves approached a temple, the King Dove said, "Get down near the temple. A rat, who is an old friend of mine, lives there. He will nibble the net with his sharp teeth and get us free."

So everyone was thrilled at their success. They headed for the temple and descended near it along with the net. Then the King Dove called the rat, "O my friend! Come out and help us. We are in trouble."

The rat recognised his friend’s voice. He peeped out of his hole.
He said, "Just wait for sometime, I’ll call some of my friends who will set you free."
Saying so he went to get his friends.

After sometime a number of rats came and began to nibble the net.
They nibbled all the strings of the net. Soon the rats set the doves free.
The doves thanked the rats and flew back to their nests.

The Mango Charm

A wandering youth once met Bholu, an illiterate villager, who knew how to perform a miracle. Everyday Bholu would go into the forest, stand under a mango tree and utter a charm. The tree would immediately become heavy with fruit. The next moment the mangoes would ripen and then they would fall to the ground. Bholu would collect them, eat some and distribute the rest among his neighbours who were poor.

Keshav the youth fell at Bholu’s feet, even though the latter belonged to a lower caste, and begged him to teach him the charm. The man reluctantly agreed but warned him, "You must never use the charm to satisfy your greed. Moreover, the charm will only work as long as you do not tell a lie."

As soon as Keshav was back in his village he repeated the charm several times daily and got large quantities of delicious mangoes. These he sold in the market and in few months he became very rich.

The king heard of the miracle. He summoned Keshav and asked, " Where did you learn your charm?".

The proud youth, unwilling to confess that he had learnt it from a man of a lower caste, replied, " O king, I learnt it after much study under a group of great scholars in a famous far away university!"

"Well, perform the miracle in front of us," ordered the king.

The king, his family and a crowd of ministers and officers followed the youth into the royal orchard. Keshav selected a big mango tree and recited the charm. But nothing happened, for he had told a lie.

Greatly humiliated, Keshav confessed the truth to the king. The king said, "You have been ungrateful to your teacher out of vanity. Go and apologise to him and perhaps the charm will work again."

The young man did so. But the charm did not work ever again because he had misused it to satisfy his greed.

How the First House was Built

A long time ago, humans were only as tall as hens and rabbits.

These tiny "humans", if you can call them that, lived under trees.

Living in trees was not very nice.

During rains they got wet. In summers they sweated madly, and in winter they almost froze into ice.

Life was tough.So they started living in burrows, just the way rabbits do.

They thought that at least this way they will be dry in the rains. And in summer, they will be safe from the hot sun.

But, often, the roofs fell upon them without warning. They would get trapped inside, unable to come out.

Life was still tough.Then the humans decided to make a tree house.

They created an umbrella of branches and leaves and lived under them.

The roof did not fall upon them.

Life became a bit better.

But the houses did not have any walls.

People continued to feel the heat and cold. Finally, they learnt the trick of making walls.

They made the first real houses.

There was no doubt any more that it was a good life.

It became even better when the humans made houses close to each other so that they would never feel alone.

The Jaguar and the Little Skunk

Once there was a gentleman jaguar and a lady skunk. Mrs. Skunk had a son, who was baptized by Mr. Jaguar, so Mrs. Skunk became his comadre (godmother). And as Mr. Jaguar had baptized the little skunk, he was Mrs. Skunk's compadre (godfather).

Mr. Jaguar decided to go looking for food and came to Mrs. Skunk's house.

"Well, compadre, what are you looking for? What have you come here for?" the skunk asked the jaguar.

"Comadre, what I have come to do is to look for some food," said Mr. Jaguar.

"Oh," said Mrs. Skunk.

"I want my godson to come with me so that he can learn to hunt," said Mr. Jaguar.

"I don't think your godson ought to go; he's still very small and something could happen to him. He better not go, compadre," said Mrs. Skunk. But the little skunk protested:

"No, mother, I had better go. What my godfather says is true. I need to get some practice, if I'm going to learn to hunt," said the little skunk.

"But if you go, you'll be so far away," said Mrs. Skunk.

"I'm going, I'm going. Come on, let's go." So they set off on a long walk.

"We're going to where there's a river. That's where we're going," Mr. Jaguar explained to the little skunk, his godson.

"When are we going to get there?" asked the little skunk.

"We're getting close. Follow me so you won't get lost," said Mr. Jaguar.

"All right," answered the little skunk. They finally came to the river.

"This is where we're going to eat," said Mr. Jaguar to the little skunk.

"All right," said the little skunk.

"Come on over here. I'm going to sharpen my knife," said Mr. Jaguar.

"All right," said the little skunk, looking at his godfather.

Mr. Jaguar sharpened his claws, which he called his "knife."

"I sharpened my knife. Now you're going to be on guard, because I am going to sleep. When you see them come, wake me up," said Mr. Jaguar.

"All right," said the little skunk, "all right, godfather."

(Skunk wakes Mr. Jaguar when prey is sighted)
Then Mr. Jaguar told him: "Don't shout. Just scratch my belly when they come. Scratch my belly, so I won't alarm them. But don't wake me up if just any little old animals without antlers come along, only when the one with big antlers gets here. That's when you'll wake me up."

"All right," said the little skunk. Then the one with the big antlers came, and the skunk awakened Mr. Jaguar. He scratched his belly, and pointed out the deer to Mr. Jaguar, who attacked the animal with big antlers. He went after him and seized him.

"All right, my godson, let's eat. We're going to eat meat," said the jaguar.

"All right," said the little skunk. And so they ate and ate.

"Now we're going to take whatever leftovers there are to your mother," said the jaguar.

"Since we are full, we can take something to your mother. Your mother will have meat to eat, just as we did. We will take some to your mother," said the jaguar. When they came back to the mother's house, he told the lady:

"Look at the food here. Look, we've brought you some food, the food that we hunted. Eat your fill of the meat, comadre," the jaguar said to Mrs. Skunk.

"All right," said the skunk, and ate the meat.

"I'm full," she said.

"It's good that you're satisfied. I've seen that you are, so I'll be leaving now," said Mr. Jaguar to Mrs. Skunk. And so he left.

After the jaguar left, the little skunk stayed with his mother.

When they ran out of meat, Mrs. Skunk said to her son: Dear, our meat is all gone."

"Yes, the meat is all gone. I better go and get us some more food," said the little skunk.

"How can you, son? Do you think you're big enough? You're very small. Don't you think you'll be killed?" asked Mrs. Skunk.

"No, mother, I already know how to hunt, my godfather taught me how," replied the little skunk.

"I'm leaving now." He left, and Mrs. Skunk was very worried.

Her son came once more to the river, the place to which he had come with his godfather to get the meat.

"This is how my godfather did it. Why shouldn't I be able to do the same thing?" said the little skunk.

"This is how you sharpen a knife," said the little skunk. He sharpened his "knife."

"This is the way my godfather did it. I'm not going to hunt the little animals, I'm just going to hunt the one with the great big antlers. I'm going to hunt one for myself just like the one I ate with my godfather. I have my knife here and I'm going to sleep for a little while." The little skunk lay down to sleep, but then he awakened. He was waiting for the one with the big antlers, and when he came, he attacked him, thinking he was as strong as his godfather. But he just hung from the neck of the one with big antlers. His claws had dug into his skin. He was hanging from his neck and was carried far away and fell on his back. He was left with his mouth wide open.

Since he had not come home to his mother, she wondered: "What could have happened to my son? Why hasn't he come back yet? Something must have happened to him. I better go and look for him."

And so Mrs. Skunk went as far as the bank of the river. She was looking everywhere for her son, but couldn't find him. She began to cry when she found the tracks where the one with the big antlers had come by running.

"They must have come by here," said Mrs. Skunk, and began to follow the tracks.

She came to the place where her son had been left lying on his back. When the mother caught sight of him, she noticed that his teeth were showing and shouted at him: "Son, what are you laughing at? All your teeth are showing," she said to him before she had gotten very close. When she did get close she told him: "Give me your hand. I've come to get you, but you're just laughing in my face." She put her hand on him, thinking that he was still alive, but when she noticed that he was already dead, she began to cry.

The Rabbit Throws Out His Sandal

The rabbit was in the cave that was the abode of all the animals: the snake, the turkey vulture, the buzzard, the deer, the lion, the skunk and the coyote. They began to get together there to discuss how they could kill the rabbit mayor (the rabbit is often called the "mayor".)

But the rabbit mayor was very clever and was looking for a way to escape. They began to keep watch on him in that house because they intended to kill him, but they were not able to kill him as they had planned. They had wanted to smash him to pieces.

"Make him come out so that he will die right now. Don't let him escape; that good-for-nothing mayor has deceived us too many times. Well, now he's surely going to be finished, we're going to finish him off. Be on your guard and don't let him get away. When he comes out of the cave we're going to smash him to pieces, for there's a lot of us. Pity him. Compared to all of us, he's nothing. We are many against one. I hope now he's going to pay for all the crimes he has committed against us. That's why he must to die now. You, turkey vulture, go and watch for him to come out, and you deer, go right after him. Since you can run as fast as the mayor, you'll be able to catch up with him. Be on guard, all of you."

"All right," they said.

"Snake, you look to see when he comes out, and we'll all pile on top of him. You snake, call him."

"Come on out, hurry," said the townspeople.

"Wait," said the rabbit, "I'm taking off my sandal."

"But hurry," said the snake.

"Wait, I'm coming out. Wait for me there, I'm coming out."

"Well, hurry," said the townspeople.

"Come on out," the snake said to the rabbit.

"I'm coming out. Wait," said the rabbit.

"Well, hurry," said the townspeople.

"All right," said the rabbit. "I'm coming out now. Please catch my sandal, I beg you."

The townspeople answered: "Catch his sandal, throw it over there. It's not as if it were your father's sandal, that you're obliged to carry it."

"All right, mayor. Throw out your sandal." And the turkey vulture caught the sandal. He gave it to the deer and the deer threw it away, as they thought that it was the rabbit's sandal. They were all shouting in the cave. They didn't know it was the mayor they had thrown away.

Rabbit outwits animals
"Come on out," shouted the snake into the cave, "come out right away." When they realized that he wasn't answering them they were sad. They sent the snake into the cave and the snake shouted: "He's not here, he's not here."

"Throw it far away."

"He's not here, he's not here. He came out," said the snake. "

He's not here. Maybe it was him we threw."

"Did you notice if it was his sandal that you threw away?" the lion asked the deer.

"Come on out, snake."

"All right." The snake came out.

Afterwards they began to kill each other on account of the mayor rabbit. He managed to go free, and when he was far away he laughed at them: "Some day you'll pay for the crimes you committed against me, the mayor. You wanted to kill me, but you weren't able to. Just wait and see what's going to happen to you later on."

The Rabbit and The Coyote

This is a story of Uncle Rabbit and the coyote. The rabbit came to a big rock, and there he deceived the coyote. He was leaning on the rock when the coyote came by.

"What are you doing, brother?" the coyote asked the rabbit.

"Come here quickly, brother, the sky is falling down on top of us. Lean against the rock and hold it up while I go for a stick. We'll prop it up with that," said the rabbit to the coyote.

(Coyote holding rock up)
"All right," said the coyote and began holding it up with all his might. Since the coyote was so stupid, he did exactly what the rabbit told him to. The rabbit had said that he was going to get a stick, but he went and left the coyote holding up the rock. When the rabbit didn't return the coyote shouted:

"Come back, brother! The weight of the rock has made me tired."

The rabbit still didn't come back.

"No matter, I'm going to leave even though the sky may fall down on top of us," said the coyote. But when he ran away he fell into a ravine. The rabbit never came back to the rock and the coyote was lost.

Later the rabbit came to a pond and saw the reflection of the moon in there. As the rabbit was very tricky, he was always deceiving the coyote. The dumb coyote always followed him and didn't know that the rabbit was deceiving him. The coyote came to the pond where the rabbit was. When he saw the coyote coming he began to drink the water from the pond.

"What are you doing, brother? The coyote asked the rabbit:

"Look, brother, there's a lot of food down there," answered the rabbit.

"What kind of food?"

"Look," the rabbit told the coyote.

The coyote looked in the water and said: "I see it. What is it?"

"There's a cheese in the water," the rabbit said to the coyote.

"If we drink all the water we can get the cheese. Drink it, you're big and you can finish all the water."

"All right, brother," he said, and began to drink the water.

"I'm going for a walk," said the rabbit, and left. The coyote continued to drink the water, but the rabbit was gone. The coyote's stomach began to hurt him, and he got the runs. He wasn't able to finish the water, so the coyote abandoned the effort and left.

The Disobedient Son

There was once a boy who was rude and wouldn't obey his mother. He would go out for a walk, without having eaten. He wouldn't come back until late, about ten or eleven o'clock at night. At ten o'clock his mother was still waiting up and worrying about him.

"What have you been doing, son?" his mother asked him. "I'm going to bed because it's late and I have just been waiting for you. You don't pay any attention to anything I tell you. I'm going to send you to your godfather. You don't pay any attention to what I tell you. The boy's mother went to see her compadre* the priest

"Compadre, what can be done about your godson? He is quite a scoundrel and doesn't obey me. You're a priest, and you can counsel and discipline this godson of yours; I can't do anything with him. This godson of yours is a rascal, compadre. Let him come to stay here with you to see if he will learn to behave."

"All right, comadre, have him come here. Why shouldn't he do what I tell him? I'm indeed a priest. I'll teach my godson to work. Don't worry, comadre, my godson is going to obey me." The woman said to her son:

"Go with your godfather, my son. He'll teach you. Since you won't obey me, go and work there."

"All right, mother, I'll go to my godfather's. Since I'm not of any use to you, I'll go and work with my godfather."

"I have come, godfather. What can I do for you? 'Go stay with your godfather', my mother said. That's why I came here to you. My mother is the one who sent me. 'Go to your godfather, you're no longer of any use to me,' my mother said."

"All right, godson," the priest said to him, "You're going to work for me."

"All right, godfather, I'm going to work. I'm going to do whatever you tell me to do; everything you tell me, I will do, godfather."

"All right. Now I'm going to tell you something," said the priest. "Godson, tomorrow morning early you're going to sweep; at three o'clock in the morning. I'm not going to awaken you, I'm just telling you now."

"All right," said the boy. At dawn he went and swept. When he was finished sweeping he went to tell his godfather the priest.

"Godfather, I've finished sweeping all of the church. So I've come to tell you."

"All right, godson, I'm glad you've finished. Now rest." Another day passed and the godfather gave him his next task:

"Now godson, I'm going to tell you what you have to do tomorrow morning. You're going to ring the bell at six o'clock. I want you to ring three times and when you're finished, come and tell me and I'll go to say Mass."

"All right," said the boy. When the next day was over the boy went to ring the bell. He went to tell his godfather:

"Godfather, I rang the bell three times. It's time to get up and go and say Mass," he told his godfather.

"All right," said the godfather. Another day was over and the priest spoke once more to the godson:

"Now I'm going to tell you once more what you have to do tomorrow."

"All right," said the boy.

"Ring the bell again early at three o'clock in the morning."

"All right," said the boy. The boy got up and remembered to ring the bell. He went to ring the bell in the belfry, but the priest, his godfather, had given the boy a test. He had left a skeleton in the belfry. The boy got there at three o'clock in the morning and found a skeleton standing in his way. He said to the skeleton:

(Boy encounters skeleton)
"Get out of my way! I'm coming to ring the bell. Don't get in my way. Get out of my way, for my godfather sent me to ring the bell. Get out of my way or I'll kill you!" He didn't get out of the way, he didn't move and he didn't answer. "Answer, or do you want me to kill you?" the boy asked the skeleton. "If for the third time you don't answer me, I'm going to smash you to pieces. That's what you want. That's why you got in my way, so now you're going to die. I'm going to throw you all the way down from here." And he pushed the skeleton out of the belfry. When he had smashed the skeleton he rang the bell and came down from the belfry. He went to his godfather's bedroom and knocked on the door to awaken him. The godfather woke up and answered the door:

"What is it?" the priest asked the boy.

"Get up, I've already rung the bell," the boy told the priest. The priest heard this and was surprised.

"Oh, did you ring the bell?" asked the priest.

"Yes, I rang the bell, godfather," the boy said.

"Didn't you see anything in the belfry?" asked the priest.

"Yes, godfather," the boy answered, "I saw something."

"What did you see?" the priest asked the boy.

"I saw someone who was standing in my way who wouldn't let me get by to ring the bell," the boy answered.

"Oh, so what did you do?" asked the priest. "Weren't you afraid of him?

"No, godfather."

"So what did you do?"

"I pushed him and he fell and broke into pieces on the floor."

"Oh, your mother told me the truth about you being a rascal," the priest said to the boy. "So you weren't afraid of him. You're a rascal of a godson. Rest. Tomorrow you will work once more." Another day came and his godfather called the boy:

"Now godson, I'm going to tell you what you're going to do tonight. You're going to take care of the sexton, who is very ill. He's about to die," the priest told the boy. "I'm tired of taking care of him."

"All right, Godfather, I'll do everything you tell me to, I'm not afraid," the boy said.

"All right," said the godfather, "at nine o'clock tonight it will be your turn to take care of the sexton by the altar. That's where he is."

"All right, godfather, I'll go and take care of him." The boy went to where the sexton was and spoke to him:

"Are you really sick?" the boy asked the sexton.

"Yes, I'm very sick, I feel like I'm going to die," the sexton told him.

"If you please, I'm going to take care of you," the boy said to the sexton. The sexton was complaining loudly, and the boy would go every so often to see him:

"Oh, you're dying," the boy told the sexton.

"I feel like I'm dying," the sexton told the boy.

"Poor thing, you had better die right away. You're just suffering. I better kill you once and for all so that you will be relieved of your suffering," the boy said to the sexton.

"Not yet, later on," the sexton said to the boy.

"No, I'm telling you that you're going to die now, for it's hard taking care of you," the boy said to the sexton. "You're going to have to forgive me, but I'm going to wring your neck."

(Boy tends sick sacristan)
"No," said the sexton.

"Oh yes I am, give me your neck, because you're going to die right now; you're just suffering. He wrung the sexton's neck. When the boy saw that the sexton had died, he went to tell his godfather. He came to his godfather's bedroom and knocked on the door:

"Get up, godfather." The priest got up and opened his door. "Hurry up godfather," the boy said, "come quickly." The boy went into the priest's bedroom. "Godfather, come with me quickly, I killed the sexton."

"Oh, why did you kill him? He wasn't sick."

"I killed him because he was suffering so much."

"Why did you kill him? He was perfectly all right."

"I'm the one who took his life."

"Oh, you bad godson, my sexton was fine, he wasn't sick," the priest told the boy again.

"So why did you send me to do that job?" the boy asked his godfather.

"You're not a good godson," said the priest. "My sexton was fine. He wasn't sick, but you didn't have anything to do. That's why I looked for a job you could do. I didn't know you were going to kill him. Now you're going to take a letter to a certain place. It will take you four years to get there."

"All right, godfather," said the boy, "I'll go. But first make me an iron rod with pincers and I'll take it along as my companion."

"All right." The letter was written and handed to the boy for him to take to that place, to the underworld.

"You're going right now," the priest told the boy. As the priest believed the boy was stupid he thought he was gone for good.

The boy took the letter and came to the place where he was supposed to deliver it. It was that place in the underworld where the devil lived. The boy arrived with the letter, came to his house and knocked on the door.

"Is the master here?" the boy asked the doorman.

"No, the master isn't here. Wait for him," he told the boy.

"All right, I have a letter to deliver," the boy said to the doorman. "Wait for him, sit down in this chair."

"I'm not going to sit down. This chair is bad. I'm going to stand for a while. When is the devil coming?"

"He's coming right away."

"I'm going to wait for him a little while longer. If he doesn't come, can I leave this letter with you?"

"Yes, you can," said the doorman.

"All right, here's his letter. Give me the answer."

"I'm not going to give you an answer; only the little devil who's in the dormitory can. I'll go bring the little devil," said the doorman.

"Go ahead and he himself will answer."

"All right," said the doorman. The little devil came to where the boy had the master's letter.

"You're going to give me an answer, because the master isn't in. That's why you're going to give me an answer."

"All right," said the little devil. "Wait a minute." As he was just saying that and not giving him an answer, the boy became angry:

"Are you going to give it to me or not?"

"Wait a moment longer," said the little devil.

"Are you going to give it to me or not?"

"Wait another moment."

"Now, are you going to give me the answer or not? Oh, aren't you ever going to give me the answer? I better take you back as an answer. Now, come with me."

"I won't go," said the little devil. You're not the one giving the orders around here."

"Come with me!" said the boy as he seized the little devil's ear with the pincers and took him by the hand. The boy set off and came back to his godfather four years after having left to take the letter. He came back one night and awakened his godfather.

"Oh," the godfather was taken aback when he saw that the boy had returned.

"Who are you?" the priest asked the boy.

(Little Devil)
"It's me, godfather, it's me. Get up right away, for I have brought you your answer. Get up right away." The priest was perplexed, because he thought that the boy was never going to return. He got up and opened the door. When he saw the boy he was frightened.

"Here's your answer, godfather. Here I brought you your answer, because the master wasn't there. That's why I brought you this little devil as your answer."

* The term compadre refers to the godfather of one's child or the father of one's godchild. The term comadre refers to the godmother of one's child or the mother of one's godchild.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Tuliro

Labis ako'y nahuhumaling sa isip
Bawat sandaling ika'y makapiling
Giliw hayaang lumapit
Wag mo sanang ipagkait
Ang malas sa langit

**anong nadarama
Tuwing makikita kang
Dumarating, tuliro
Di malaman ang gagawin
At walang sino mang makapipigil sa akin
At wla ng ibang makapagbabago ng aking isip sau..haaay!!

Wari di ko na malimut
Mga galaw at kilos mo
Sa aking pagtulog
At sa panaginip ika'y mamalagi
Di na muling malulumbay
Sa aking pagising

Repeat**
Anong nadarama

Anong nadarama
Ngayon sa isip ko'y hindi ka maalis
Tuliro
Di malaman ang gagawin
At walang sinumang makapipigil sa akin
At wala ng ibang makapagbabago ng aking isip sau...

Anong nadaram
Ngayon at nandirito ka sa aking tabi
Tuliro
Di malaman ang gagawin
At walang sinumang makapipigil sa akin
At wala ng ibang makapagbabago ng aking isip sau..

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Magbalik by Callalily

Wala na ang dating pagtingin
Sawa na ba saking lambing
Wala ka namang dahilan
Ngunit bakit biglang nalang nang-iwan



Hindi na alam ang gagawin
Upang ika’y magbalik sakin
Ginawa ang ko naman ang lahat
pero bakit bigla nalang naghanap



Hindi magbabago
Pagmamahal sa iyo
Sana’y pakinggan mo
Ang awit ng pusong ito



Tulad ng mundong hindi
Tumitigil sa pag-ikot
Pag ibig di mapapagod



Tulad ng ilog na hindi
Tumitigil sa pag agos
Pag ibig di matatapos



Alaala’y bumabalik
Mga panahong nasasabik
Sukdulang mukha ay
Laging nasa panaginip



Bakit biglang pinagpalit
Pagsasamaha’y tila nawaglit
Ang dating walang hanggan
Nagkaroon ng katapusan



Hindi magbabago
Pagmamahal sa iyo
Sana’y pakinggan mo
Ang awit ng pusong ito




Tulad ng mundong hindi
Tumitigil sa pag-ikot
Pag ibig di mapapagod



Tulad ng ilog na hindi
Tumitigil sa pag agosPag ibig di matatapos
Pag ibig di matatapos...

Friday, March 23, 2007

A Love Affair With MV Doulos and Books

We visited MV Doulos last February 12,2007, one of the world’s oldest ship that is still traveling.
MV Doulos was a really a great ship. Imagine it was built in the year 1914, two years younger than the oldest and famous ship, Titanic, but still it is sailing. Being the world’s largest sea traveling bookstore, as what I have learned, it carries around 6,000 books from place to place, across the seas and oceans to reach the different parts of the world.
In their book fair, I was very happy because being a book-lover, I found books that I like. I want to buy all of them but I have no budget. I only bought a crossword puzzle book. I love those science books, yhat are full of information, story books and mystery books that are full of wonderful stories and some have freaky chapters. The answer-question books that was my favorite were there and once I scanned the pages I can’t get my hands off them. I bought a crossword and word find book so that I can learn something while spending my free time. I love word find books. There are many books that I liked to buy but because I have no budget, I bought only one.
I tasted their ice cream, with vanilla flavor. The taste was really delicious, sensational and top notched. The cost is really worth it.
There was a program after we visited the book fair. There were lectures and demonstrations that some of my schoolmates joined. There were games that everyone laughed and had fun.
We had fun while we were on board. They taught lessons about God and people around the world that help voluntarily. They distributed some magazines and as I read them I said to myself that MV Doulos will live longer. Their magazines are full of God's words. Magazines are very ordinary paper materials for us but for them, these are important materials. They use it as paper materials that can help people know about God. Even if they have different religions, they want to share the goodness of God. They believe that God in their different religions, is just one. You can also see in their magazines that they persevered to make it because you can see their beautiful drawings. Their magazines also tells a lesson that being good children of God is like loving people around the world.
After the lecture, I learned that Doulos is not just an ordinary ship. It does not only travel around the world to bring those books. It is also about different races of people that shows harmony and cooperation. From their earnings, they help poor people around the world. They have built charities that adopts homeless people around the world and held feeding programs to feed people. They have helped many people around the continents but they are still helping until now.
Hope that Doulos will come back here in the country so that the next generation would learn a lot of lesson in life.

What do The Stars and the Sky Tell me About Life?

The stars: What’s with them?

“Star light, star bright. First star I have seen tonight. I wish I may I wish I might, that my wish comes true tonight”. Have you heard this? Of course yes, isn’t it? We usually sing this in our kindergarten level or in our first grade. Stars, stars, .and stars… what do they tell about life?
Stars are believed and said to be some kind of magical. They say that they are magical because they make your wishes and dreams come true. They said that if you wish upon a star, particularly a falling star, it will make your wish come true.
In the ancient days, falling stars or comets are said to bring bad luck. They say that these bring curses the land where they would pass. It may cause death of leaders, kings and other royal-blooded people in that nation or a big calamity is coming in the form of natural disasters, diseases, drought, thirst, famine or even a bloody war.
Nowadays, stars are believed to be granter of wishes. I do not know why they evolved or changed in meaning. Stars, like humans, evolve and pass through different stages. They also pass through many difficulties; they undergo phases that pass through the nuclear, atomic or radioactive changes. This reflects on humans, that like a star, they are being molded into better citizens. They tell us that there are times when we undergo many changes in life; from a toddler, to a kid; a kid to a teen and so on. Stars are made to let us remember that people evolve, undergoing changes not only physical, also psychological.
In a form of a joke, you can say that stars are to remind us that we experience aging and we are also buried fifty feet below the ground.
Seriously, stars are to tell us that as a generation passes by, it gives way to a new generation from its own guts. Like humans, blood is passed from generation to generation.

The Sky

Is there anything in the sky that tells you something about life? For me, the clouds tell something about life. It does not only bring precipitation, it also brings something about life.
In the circle of life, as we journey through life, we experience difficulties and get hold of problems but like clouds, we can only get 100% humidity of our problems and not beyond that limit.
Another factor is as clouds appear, they darken the surroundings. It reflects when we are on the dark side of our life. But as the wind blows the clouds away, we can experience again the good weather and the goodness of life. This is also to remind us that we can go through our own problems. Remember, in life, we experience ups and downs, positives and negatives and pros and cons.
Look above you, can you have something that tells about life? Let Neil Armstrong be our inspiration in reaching those heavenly bodies. Remember that he was the first one to land on the moon that the ancient people had think that they could not reach.

On Being Taught By Students

There are many relationships that develop as we go through this broad and far-reaching way of life. We develop many relationships like a relationship with our loved ones, a relationship with our friends and a relationship with our family. Around us there are relationships, too, such as symbiosis, predation, commensalisms and many more.
We as students develop a relationship with our teachers. For recognizing our second moms and dads, I can tell that we learn a lot from them.
What if one day, we switch positions with our teachers? Can we hold all their responsibilities and teach our classmates like what they do.
Here in U. P. every year they celebrate the KYSD or Know Your School Day. I think that this is their celebration that is known in our elementary years as the Teacher’s Day. This is a tribute to our teachers for teaching us and for non-teaching positions a tribute for their service. By this program, we can experience the difficulties and problems of teachers which are mostly their students.
Actually, I should have written “Reflections in Running a School” but I was not able to get my Identification Card as the school librarian. They said that it was a big responsibility of the Student Council if we have positions located at the other side of the school. So, we were considered still as students.
It was Thursday when the Identification Card was distributed. I expected one because I was already received by the school librarian to take her place. Bu unluckily I did not because they were too busy managing the students. They say that if they cross the street they will be prone to danger.
Our first subject that day was Computer. I like computers and want to have one. But I should learn first how to use it before having one. Our student teacher was Rheena. I think she was not too serious at that time. Our next teacher was or should I say our next teachers were a group of teachers. I think that there are too many that time and others do not cooperate because they want other people to do their job. Social Science was a serious subject so everyone should be serious but even the student teachers were not. In our Math, our true teacher was the one who discussed her own lessons. She told us that no one applied to replace her in her subject. That was what happened to our other subject, Home Technology. Same old face, nothing’s change. Just kidding! Also with our Music subject, we had the same teacher. In our English, we were taught by our classmate, Patrice. I think she was a good teacher because she discussed her lessons well. She would also entertain questions from the students. In our Science C, we were also taught by a group of student teachers.
As what I always think each day, learn more and more each day, gain understandings and lessons whoever the teacher is.
That was only the first day. I wonder what will happen tomorrow. What do you think would happen, guys and girls?

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Technology's Price

Sure, that new computer models has more functions and that new cellular phone models have more, new cool features. As new models of the gadgets of today are more useful, do you know what happens to the old computer and old cell phone? They become wastes and trashes or as what we call electronic waste.
Experts estimated that there are almost eighty million computers that were junked last year. As what I have read in an internet article, according to the United States Environmental Protection Agency, there were around four million tons of appliances and electronics that were discarded in the year 2000 in the United States alone. Only a few of them were reused to make new models. Most of them were just dumped ending up in landfills and dump sites, and the toxic that they contained, contaminated the environment. Computers and other gadgets contain toxic materials, such as lead and cadmium, which are found in circuit boards; lead oxide and barium in the monitor’s cathode ray tubes or its picture tube; mercury in switches and flat screens; and brominated flame retardants in circuit boards, cables and plastic casings .
Cathode ray tubes contain five to seven pounds of lead that protects the computer users from the radiation. It is beneficial for humans but in a landfill or in a dump site it seeps into the soil to the groundwater, affecting plants, animals, and most of all to human race. When ingested, this can cause hyperactivity, impaired hearing, decreased growth and brain damage and other physical or mental injuries or damages.
Think how much a gadget can affect to the environment. That is only computers, now here are other gadgets that affect the nature.
Aside from the well-known computers, some other appliances that contribute to electronic wastes are televisions, stereo equipments, radios, cameras, and cell phones, kitchen appliances like refrigerators and ovens and CD, Video-CD and DVD players.
The problem of e-waste is a very serious one. With the on growing technology advancement, disposals of big technological appliances also increases. To address this problem, to the most innovative country in the field of technology, major Japanese electronic manufacturers are investing in green electronics. To eliminate toxic chemicals, green electronics produce appliances that use lead-free products. Japan and the European Union have ordered manufacturers to pay for collection and recycling of their old products to new products.
In the Philippines, there are no campaign or government projects for the recycling of electronic waste. Information drive about its danger is of a few number, is lacking or almost absent. Though our country is in step with the rest of the world as far as advances of technology and gadgets are concerned, our efforts in managing electronic wastes are found waiting. When will the government and local officials move, soon? Well it is too late to move soon and they should do it today.

Monday, March 12, 2007

Someone that Changed My Life

How would you deal with a person that is new to you? You think that you know her much as if you met in a very long time. As times and days passed, you became friends and even develop a feeling deep inside yourself. You became even closer friends and it stays longer to know one another.

When I was in my sixth grade in elementary, I had this experience. I already new her when we were in the third grade. She was on the other section so I do not even know her name. After three years, we became classmates. As time run, we became friends and as days passed even closer ones. We shared happy and sad moments. We unfolded our secrets. But one secret I did not told her, she was my crush. Of course, you do not want to destroy your friendship and you will choose it over love. Keeping my feelings for her was a very hard thing to do. Whenever she asks me who my crush is, I would tell her that I had no crushes. But she would not believe me and it takes a very long time to convince her. We would play games. I told it to Louie, my best friend, I told him what happened that day and everything. He laughed at me because he thought I was not serious with my feelings for her. He told me that I have to do my choice with that matter. So I had to do my own choice and I chose friendship over love as I have said a while ago.

On a hot noon, her mother went to our school to see her. I told her mother that she was not around because she went to my classmate's house to do a group project. So her mother told me that I should if I could and if I may accompany her child in going home. Not being busy that day I answered yes. A little while later, I saw her and told her what happened a while ago. She asked if I am not that busy that day and if it is okay for me. I answered her yes and no respectively. During the dismissal, as what I and her mom had agreed, I accompanied her to their house. As we were crossing a street, she held my hand tightly (Oh my God!). She did not let go my hand until we were on the other side of the road. I wanted to jump with all the happiness that I felt in my heart at that time. But I concentrated in keeping her safe in my hands. I asked her what happened and why she held my hand. She answered that she was afraid because she does not know how to cross the street and she was also afraid in having herself in an accident.

As time pass by, I thought that I have deeper feelings for her. In our graduation, I saw her but only in the mass. In our commencement exercises I didn’t see her. She did not attend our Recognition Day. Most of our teachers told us that we are too young to enter the kingdom of love. We just laugh at them.

This girl I am referring too is my ultimate crush in the sixth grade, Flora May.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

The Science of Sharing

The study of coexisting, mutually dependent populations of different species basically deals with relationship, interaction and control. All species in a community are related to each other in one way or another. Relationships are products of many interactions that exist between species within the community. Some interactions are simple and some are complex. The quality of such interactions identifies control.
In general, only a few species exert a major controlling influence on the entire community. The control can have either a positive or negative result on other species in the community. One of the relationships that may exist between species in the community is commensalism.
Commensalism exists between two species in a community in which one species benefits from the relationship, and the other is unaffected. The term commensalism is derived from the Latin phrase com mensa which means sharing table. The original meaning describes a second animal utilizing waste food by the first animal to feed for itself. A key idea to remember is that commensalism favors one species over another in such a way that even as the favored species benefits, the other is neither harmed nor helped.
As what I have learned, there are three form of commensalism. They are phoresy, inquilism,and metabiosis.
Phoresy describes a relationship wherein one species uses another for transportation matters. An example of this is the remora benefits from the shark by using the shark as a means of transportation. The remora benefits while the shark is neither benefited nor affected.
In my readings about commensalism, I have learned about inquilism. This so-called inquilism describes the relationship wherein one species use another for housing purposes. The best example is that of birds and trees. There are birds that live on holes found on trees. They do not make the hole themselves so the tree is unaffected. The birds are benefited because they are the provided shelter from the elements. Another example of inquilism is the relationship that exists between an orchid and a tree. The orchid gets neither food nor water from trees. The benefit that the orchid derives is that it uses the tree for its attachment that is like the house or shelter of it. The orchid does not have to depend on the tree for food. It is because it has its own chlorophyll that allows to manufacture or make its own food. However, it needs the tree for support so that it can use its specialized roots to collect moisture in the air. For short, the tree does not benefit from the orchid any way. But the tree is not harmed either.
Metabiosis describes a relationship wherein one species use something that another species is created. This is an indirect kind of relationship. An example is shown by the hermit crab and the snail. When the snail dies, the hermit crab uses the dead snail's shell. The hermit crab does not affect the snail's survival but it benefits from the shell that was left behind.
Studying relationships can be interesting.

Salt: Spice or Vice?

The relevance of food chemistry in our life is exemplified if we consider the food we eat. For example, an egg hardens when cooked because of changes that happens in its chemical structure when exposed to heat.
A kitchen is just like a science laboratory. Let us examine the chemical nature of food and other ingredients found in the kitchen.
Salt is the original additive. Essential for life salt or sodium chloride controls many bod functions. Salt is one of the five taste sensations we can detect with sensors or taste buds on our tongues. In the kitchen, we use salt as a preservative, to help strengthen the dough,and to emphasize the flavors of the food we eat.
Salt preserves food by taking out moisture, thus preventing bacteria to grow. The charge on the sodium and chloride ions in dough and meringues can help bind charged protein molecules, thus making them stronger.
Although salt was once one most precious commodities. Romans can prove this because Roman soldiers are paid a “salary” to buy their salt. Today, salt is a common thing and added to nearly all processed foods, both as a flavor enhancer and as a preservative.
Can you imagine food without salt? Perhaps not. We, Filipinos, crave for food with salty taste. Just look at our menu: bagoong, adobong baboy, tapsilog, roasted pig, crispy pata and many more. But children of today they are getting crazy for junk foods. They want to eat junk foods all the time. Some of us can not eat without patis or toyo. Yes, salt is the spice of our gastronomic life.
It is not bad. We do need salt in our body. Chemically, table salt is nothing but sodium chloride. The sodium part is essential to good health. It helps transport electric charges between nerves and muscles, and maintains the balance of fluid in our body. It is also involved in the proper functioning of the heart. The body need only a small amount of sodium to function properly, about a half gram daily, the equivalent of a quarter teaspoon.
Sodium is present in nearly all plants and animals we consume. Many processed foods contains a large amount of sodium which may come from table salt, vetsin or monosodium glutamate or baking soda or sodium bicarbonate. While sodium is not in itself bad, taking it in excess is. Findings show that people who habitually consume large amount of salt develop hypertension or high blood pressure. Also, people with hypertension can lower their blood pressure if they follow low-sodium diet or intake.
Here is why: Too much sodium causes the body to retain fluids. And too much fluids in the blood stream causes great pressure on the walls of arteries. In some people, this cause dizziness and swelling of the legs.
What can we do to avoid this? Remove the table salt, patis and toyo from the table when you eat. Substitute other herbs and spices for salt in flavoring food. Eat foods low in salt which includes skim milk,fresh fruits, asparagus, broccoli and green beans. Eat less of foods with too much salt, particularly processed foods, such as, cheese,cereals, cured and smoked meats,pickled delicacies, snack foods and etc. Drink plenty of water.
If you can't live with this, I mean without salt, do not tell me I did not warn you.
Bon apetit! Mesdemoiselles et messierus.

Friday, March 9, 2007

Chemistry in Life

Everything that surrounds us is matter. Matter here, matter there, matter is everywhere. In a broad sense, chemistry is the study of matter. It includes the matter's composition, structure, properties, transformation from one form to another, and the energy that accompanies its transformation. The principles of chemistry are therefore needed to understand the nature of matter so that we will be able to deal with them to control them for the improvement of our lives. Biological fuels, radioactive wastes, propellants-all these things have some form of impact or another on our everyday existence. Quite a number of aspects of our existence depend on them , too, and are maybe even threatened by them. The correct phrase should probably be, people make these things threatening to other people, and to organic life in general. Radioactive wastes need no introduction. We are all aware of their destructive effects on the environment. These are proper ways to dispose of these harmful materials, but somehow, there are still who choose to ignore rules and take the easy way out instead, that is, dump wherever it can be dumped, even if it spells environmental degradation. Yet, there are those also who put their talents and conscience into good use, those who would use natural materials than hazardous fossil fuels. Biomass is all-natural, and it is variant, biological fuel, is made from the chemical energy released by plants in photosynthesis. It has long been proposed that we switch that release poisonous substances into the air, to cleaner alternatives that will ensure our health preservation and at the same time, will not compromise the efficiency of our vehicles and countless machinery. We are not there yet, and the road sustainable development is long and winding.

Of course. There is a limit to everything, even environmentalism. Mining should not be condemned, for instance, since this is where like mineral golds acquired. And, besides being lovely to look and awesome to have, gold could also possibly help cure cancer. There is a study that proves that gold is a good cancer killer. However, when mining, the residue or leftovers must be dealt accordingly. It would be a sorry state of affairs if we humans were a hundred percent healthy, but at the cost of wiping out our environment due to poor waste management. And with sickly surroundings, how long do you suppose before we come sickly as well.

Chemistry plays an important part in all this. Despite its apparent contributions to human life, we humans take it for granted. A few who are of it abuse it, thus, the foul effects on our surroundings. But, take a closer look at our food. They are the way they are because of chemistry, and it is this exact same science that makes our bodies function, provides us with energy, and even launches ship into outer space.
Chemistry is all-encompassing. Its benefits are myriad, as long as its potential hazards are kept ion check, and more importantly, those wanting to exploit it are kept at bay.

Water, Water Everywhere

Water is everywhere. You see it in rivers, lakes, streams, ponds, springs and oceans. It is a common place or thing to us that perhaps, you haven’t thought of how vital water is for the survival of every little thing in the world.
During our ancestors’ days, rivers and streams provided them with fresh drinking water. They were also provided with fishes or even other aquatic animals that can be eaten. But that was a long time ago. Today, most of the bodies of the water have become polluted. Even those under the ground are contaminated.
What bodies of water do you see in your community? These are probably fresh water bodies such as rivers and streams. Living in these bodies of water are plants and animals that depend each other to survive. They also provide humans and land animals food.
What do you notice about the quality of water in most our rivers, lakes and streams? Can you say that our freshwater is fresh and clean? That’s a big no. Sadly, our careless and irresponsible activities produce too much harmful substances and wastes that contaminate or pollute the environment, including the bodies of water.
Everyday, each one of us generates or releases harmful wastes. When thrown into rivers and lakes, these harmful wastes pollute the waters. When waters are polluted, the animals and plants living in it are affected. It is either their growth retarded or they will just die. Consider this: The plastic bag you throw into the water does not break down easily and therefore remains in the water for a long period of time. It can trap or strangle animals. On the other hand, biodegradable wastes such as leftover food breeds bacteria. These bacteria use up the water oxygen, robbing plants and animals of this precious gas that they need in order to survive. Without oxygen, plants and animals will simply die. Sewage, infectious agents and chemical pollutants poison these organisms. When these organisms die, they will not be able to reproduce and multiply; when they can not reproduce, then the life cycle could no longer continue. This means that animals and plants in this habitat become extinct. What then is left? Bodies of water-that can no longer sustain life.
Harmful wastes, garbage, refuse leftovers, trash. Whatever you call it, wastes does not belong to waters. Both biodegradable and non-biodegradable refuse should not be disposed of properly. How do we do manage waste? We can practice the 3Rs-Reduce the amount if trash you discard by Reusing containers and products, and Recycling as much as possible. By being more careful and responsible, you help continue the cycle in your hands.
But what is more alarming? The more alarming is that bodies of water are beginning to dry up and therefore, water is becoming scarce. If we do not begin using resources wisely and utilize it effectively, our generation and the future generations may not have enough water to keep them alive.
The choice lies in our hands. When will we decide when there’s nothing left? Decide today.

A Sense of Wonder

You wonder. How is it possible? Possible to put billions and billions of transistors into a slice of silicon thinner than a candy wrapper and smaller than a ten-centavo coin, possible to have babies even if they cannot? You wonder how the silicon can perform trillions of calculation per second. Your mind wanders into the factory as you try to imagine the machines and gadgets that made this possible.
Well, because people share your sense of wonder, microchips of this magnitude and power are reality today.
You wonder. Is color real? Is the blue I see the same blue that all the people in the world sees? Is the red that I see on roses the same red that my friend sees? Do colors tell me something around me? You wonder about the rainbow and how the light of the sun dances on the waters of the seas during an exceptionally clear day.
Well, because others that came before you have wondered as much, the science of spectroscopy was born. Now the studies of the heavenly bodies become more precise or more informative and the healing of human bodies made easier.
You wonder. Is there anything other than gas, solid, liquid, plasma and the newest substance, the BEC or the Bose-Einstein Condensate exists in the universe? Now you know that plasma is the fourth state of matter and that it is the state of most matter and in interstellar space. The BEC or the Bose-Einstein Condensate predicted by Albert Einstein and Sthyendra Nath Bose.
Finally you wonder, like so many great minds have before you, whether the atom is really basic building block for the so-called matter. This sense of wonder has led the scientists to build complex or complicated and expensive machines to dissect the very essence of matter. That is how the4y discovered these substance quarks.
Children are often called irritating because they ask a lot of questions. They want to know so many things about this place we live in- the environmental interactions, the space-which include the stars, planets and other heavenly bodies. They do want to know so many things about the world around them. Even they are just children, they have this curiosity. “Why?” is often heard springing out there mouths. A discovery is often punctuated with or by gleeful exclamations and reactions of “That's it.”
The sad thing is that many of us lose this sense of wonder as we grew up, having age. We take for granted or we simply lose the will to wonder. A lucky few number of people, however, never lose this and keep it well into their age. Wondering and thinking are pleasurable daily activities that make them happy and alive.
A sense of wonder is worth keeping and enriching. It’s a treasure that can never be taken away from us. It is a bright flame that will throw a ray of light on dark paths and alleys. With this healthy sense of wonder, we will never ever lose our way.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Who?

I have a friend. We were very close that I know almost all about him. He has a funny nickname- Toto. He said that it came from the province of her father and her sis called him with that nickname before he came out in her mother’s womb. He lived in their house of course, somewhere near Banilad, City of Cebu. I can memorize his number because we are both Globe users.
His favorite food were fried chicken, roasted chopped pork, French fries, burger and any other food that contains meat on it. He has pets. He had two hens, a rooster, three chicks, five fishes and two doves. His favorite books were books that contain stories of love and life, suspense, horror and mystery books. But his most favorite book is “The Bermuda Triangle”. He played many sports. He played volleyball, tennis, table tennis, scrabble, badminton, soccer and many more. His favorite color is sky blue or any other color that has the shade of blue. His zodiac sign is Taurus because his mother gave him birth on the sixth of May, in the year 1994. His hobbies are playing computer games or physical or mind games, dancing, singing, eating and reading books. He does not have any favorite singer or favorite radio station. His favorite cartoon character is Tasmanian Devil or Taz. He always wanted to watch love, suspense, horror and mystery stories on film. He has a shell collection at their house and his favorite shell was the most unique, pink shell that he gave to someone special in his life.
He describes himself as a ninety-nine point nine percent human and 0.1% alien. His motto is this- Time is a great teacher. He gives the test first before the lesson to be learned. His happiest moment when he accompanied her crush in going home and the mother of her crush received him as a special person. The most embarrassing moment in his life is when he skidded in front of many people. His definition for crush is when you admire a person. His crushes always change. The type of girls that he always had a crush was those intelligent and shorter girls than him. He always met his crushes in schools.
His unforgettable date was when he and his crush were walking down the street going to a place where their friends were, then it rained and they shared an umbrella. While they were walking his crush suddenly complained that she was already wet, so he embraced his crush with one of his arms and continued walking until they reached their destination.
He’s a friendly but some kind of choosy. He had his friend girls more than boys. But he always bond with the boys because they always play computer games.
He is in his first year nowadays. He is one of the honor students but unluckily made it to the top ten. I think that he’s not that intelligent and not that dull. In fact he was a consistent first honor from Grades I to V and graduated as valedictorian in his former school. He has 23 medals. Twenty were gold; two were silver and a bronze. He had many ambitions in life. He dreamed to be a scientist, astronaut, engineer and even a teacher.
He is no other than me.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Love and it's true meaning


Everybody says that no one can love. Do you think this is true? But what does love really means? Well, they say that love is when you love that person for a reason and that reason is unknown. Some define it as when you smile at the thought of someone loving you just the way you are. Others define it as when you do something for somebody without conditions nor expectations. But what really love means for lovers and is there something beyond love?

A famous writing that is a very good example for showing love is “Romeo and Juliet” written by William Shakespeare. Couples or lovers show this in their own ways. Some do this by H.H.W.W. or holding hands while walking in parks.

Well, everybody loves. Not only for lovers but also for a family caring and loving one another. Like a mother that puts her baby to sleep. Another is a father giving a chicken's best part for her daughter or son. Parents that educate their children. A wife and a husband are still together for better or for worse of their family. A wife seeing her husband sweaty and she says that he is more handsome than Sam Milby. A family walks hand in hand and side by side in many life journeys of difficulties in life. The aged also show this love in their own ways. An example is when lola can't scratch her back because she can't reach it. Then, lolo scratches it for her. Well there's nothing bad for being affectionate.

Friends also love their friends. Well not all friends are always there to reach out a helping hand. True friends are the one you should love. One example of this four-letter word is when you offer a shoulder to a friend where she or he could cry on. Another is by making your friend full of glee in times when he or she is sad or by making him or her feel your presence in times when your friend is alone.

We display love everywhere. There are too many meanings of love. You call it love when you see more positive traits of a person than her or his negative traits. You also call it love when you have someone loves and cares for you in good times and bad times. Love is in the unity in the midst of diversity. Another is when you try your best to learn things that you hate that your loved ones wanted and liked much. Giving up of something that you still need.

Love starts of course from the first time you met. As time passes by, you know more about one another. After sometime, you became friends. As the time goes on with your going on friendship, you develop some kinda feelings inside but because you don't want to broke your friendship. This is where love comes from.

Who says that we teens could not understand love? We can show it by many ways like having relationships with the other or befriending people.

They say that height, weight, age and sex doesn't matter in the kingdom of love. But we should remember that we should study first before entering the world of love.

Love as defined by doctors define it is a medicine that as time passes by and we take it every now and then can lead to addiction. Loving too much is not good but loving less is not right.

Overnight

It was our third overnight for the Stargazer’s Society members. But this overnight is different from the past overnights. All the freshmen attended the overnight.
I did not go home. My father sent me the things that I needed for the overnight. He also sent me my supper. After eating, I changed my clothes and wore the club’s t-shirt. When the clock stroke seven, my classmates started to arrive. Some of their parents with them and others reached school by themselves. Mme. Gallo told us to lay our beddings.
Around eight in the evening, Mr. Christopher Go had a short lecture about the Junior Red Spot and the New Horizons Pluto Express. He also showed us some animations that he did for his lecture. He showed us pictures of his bosses and the planet Jupiter. He informed us that year 2009 is the International Year of Astronomy. Some of my schoolmates asked questions and he answered all of them.
After the lecture, we went back to the soccer field. I wanted to sleep or just lie down, but the boys in our class decided to have our mats closed so that we’ll have a bigger space. We made noise. I decided to watch a movie in the LEADER and invited my classmates to watch. They hurried to the LEADER at once. We brought our blankets for it was cold and we didn’t bring jackets. The demand of the viewers was to play the DVD Princess Hours. I was the one who operated the DVD player. But then a second year student told me that he will play a horror film. I went back to my seat. Some of my classmates were shouting already even if it’s in the introduction of characters. I have already seen the movie but I wanted to watch it again. The movie was “The Shutter”.
One of my classmates screamed. The next part is the most exciting part for it was near the end. Mme. Gallo said that we should stop the film because we were noisy and people were asleep. We can wake them up. And in fact, horror movies are not allowed. We went back to our place, where we lied down, ate and drank. I and my boy classmates decided to sleep. One of our classmates was very noisy; imitating one of our teachers. We can’t sleep because of him but a little while later he was asleep. So, I decided to sleep.
It was four thirty when I woke up. They laughed at me because I was the first one that was fast asleep and I should be the first one to wake up but I was not the first one to wake up. Instead, I was the last one to wake up in our group. We brushed our teeth in the sink. We decided to have jogging and roam around the school. It was a minute or two past five thirty when the wake up call sounded. The school bell rang.
We took pictures. It was always done after each overnight: to have picture-taking and to hear the wake up call. I said goodbye to my classmates and friends. And that was the end of our third overnight in the U.P.H.S. Grounds.

Monday, February 5, 2007

A recent life chapter

Have you met a person that became an important part of your life? After sometime you became friends but one day you two had a little misunderstanding. You became enemies and you don’t want to be drawn near her or him. I am experiencing it now, just read along. It was my second day as a first year high school student. Our former teacher in English rearranged us by height. Before the rearrangement, I was in the first seat from the door. After the arrangement, I was on the third group seating at the fourth seat.
I was eating my lunch when a girl from a particular school, greeted me. At first, I can’t believe that someone knows me from other schools. She asked me if I knew her. I said that I didn’t know her but she looks familiar to me. So, she just introduced herself to me. She also introduced her friends that were my classmates. Our schools are members of a district. It was District VII. She asked me if I can remember the Science Quiz Bowl when we were in the fifth grade. She said that she was one of the participants on that bowl. I apologized because I forgot her. She said that she hated me in that quiz bowl because I was like a mind-reader. She said that I could read visions. But I just laughed at her and said that my teacher trained me well. I befriended one of them. I wanted to make her as my best friend because she resembles my former best friend in attitude and standing. I asked her a favor if I can put things in her locker. She said that it was okay for her. One afternoon they had an urgent meeting, she asked me if I can do a favor for her. I said that it was okay because I finished my cleaning job. She asked if I can put the things on her locker. I assured her that I will do what she said. After their meeting, she thanked me.
One noon, after eating my lunch, I asked her about her family. Then, we came to a topic that I think is sad for her. It was about her father. She was going to eat her lunch that time but kept her lunch and said that she lost her appetite. I apologized to her. I kept saying that she should eat but she keeps on replying that she didn’t want to eat. I felt guilty at that time because of my curiosity. The next day, she told me more information about her father. She asked me to buy juice in the canteen and I did it.
One afternoon around noontime, my friends and I were planning to fool our other classmates. We wanted them to believe us in our joke. Then she came into the room and my other classmates told her that, “Oh, A warning from the CWTS again!” I said, “Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.” Then she asked us “Where?” and we replied that we were just fooling her. She told me straight from where I’m standing that how dare we. I said that don’t be too hot. But she shouted at me in front of the class and scolded me like a junk. From that day on, everything changed.
Day after day, we don’t pay attention to one another. We don’t go near from one another and when we meet, one of us go to the other way. One time when she opened her locker, I got my things and put it on another locker. I just thanked her for keeping my things.
But then, I realized that I should be the first to say sorry. Being shy, I sent her messages in her e-mail address. I thought that she didn’t read my messages and just put it into trash. Another way of apologizing was when our overnight was postponed because of the bad weather. She had many things to bring back home. I said that we’d just wait for my father so that she wouldn’t have difficulty in bringing her things. She didn’t thank me for helping her but I think she thanked my father.
So I stopped in sending her mails of apology. But for the last few days, she sent a message of apology. But I don’t know what I’ll do.